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Arete Fantine Morguelocke
17 March 2011 @ 10:39 am
(( The following are links to different IC stories throughout Arete's journal in chronological order.))

The Past Few Days
Skinning
Kaliri Stew
The Elvish Party
Suicide/Rebirth
Injected: An Ode to Magnus
Laundry
Submission

(( Enjoy, and thank you for reading! ))
 
 
Arete Fantine Morguelocke
19 September 2009 @ 12:10 am
((Story))

Time was spent, simply and interminably, attempting to claw tooth and nail out of a ditch. Each layer of mud caked onto her fingertips resembled an opened scab, cracking apart and fruitlessly trying to bandage itself only to be shattered again. The slop would solidify and then, under pressure, crumble to dirt. Wet with blood, tears, and occasional rainfall, the hands that dug into the mud would receive their gloves once more.

She tried. Endlessly, she tried.

The grub-infested Plaguelands sealed her away for the first time since her reanimation, merely because she couldn't climb. It was the longest period of Arete's life where she had gone entirely without food, water, bathing; all of these were luxuries that many Forsaken had clearly already abandoned. She wholly felt inhuman.

Countless hours had passed, engraving a static portrait of the sky above into the Forsaken's brain. Bleak amber clouds of poison bled across the sky, wafting aimlessly over the stretch of dead land and the fissure in which Arete laid. Without the will or ability to crane her neck in a different direction, this was all Arete observed for several days straight.

"Maybe I'll just close my eyes and fall asleep." Obliging, her eyelids hung formlessly over her empty sockets. A simple smile snuggled itself on Arete's lips, confident she would drift into dreamland. She made a bed of the pebbles, roots, and rocks-- ignoring the pestilence in the air-- and swept a mound of dirt and leaves upon her as a makeshift blanket. Tucking her hands beneath her cheek for a pillow, Arete sighed and relaxed. The wind whistled in her ears, every minute slowly ticking by with little slipping from her weary consciousness.

Sleep never came. When she opened her eyes after what seemed to be an eternity, nothing had moved. The stars must have frozen in place. Peering at the ground above, she noticed a lumbering carrion devourer had only progressed a few yards forward and showed no signs of prior napping. It steadily marched off in an arbitrary direction.

Arete's head crashed back into her soil cot, her comfortable smile rudely roused from its resting place. Sleep never came.

The toxic atmosphere seared the soft sunlight into a burnt orange color, igniting the landscape as dawn trickled over it. Arete clutched her caved stomach with thoughts of breakfast, certain she should find something to eat soon. Nothing of dietary contribution thrived in the Plaguelands: all game was turgid, the water was foul, and all plants had withered. The only living creatures that came to mind were the members of the Argent Dawn posted at either end of the Plaguelands and the few Scarlets roaming around. Scarlets... like blood, full of sustenance--

--no! She couldn't possibly be that hungry. It had only been a few days, and already she was contemplating eating a human? The thought turned her stomach, yet flipped it right back into place to let it growl. Arete wiped the saliva pooling at the corners of her mouth and shook her head fiercely. She would have to be strong and survive, but first she had to get out of the pit. The moment she reached the top, she could grab her hearthstone and be home free.

Arete immediately sat up and bolted at full speed toward the edge of the trench, tearing at the dirt madly in search of leverage. She leaped up and stabbed at the wall with every finger, tossing dirt in her eyes, hair, and mouth in her fervor. She shrieked as she scaled the ramp, desperate for an escape. Stupid foolish priestess. No strength, no agility, no flexibility, no ropy muscle coiled around her blackened bones, no nothing to help her get out of this pit except faith. No beam of Light would illuminate Arete and levitate her to the surface, nor would some Naaru materialize from thin air to pluck and place Arete within the Shattrath sanctuary. Faith was nothing but selfish wishing and her denial of reality. Her kind of being is an abomination and, by all laws that deterred the path of evil, she should not be. She was a walking opposition to the holiness she revered. She and all her kind were the A-list enemies of every faction on Azeroth. Scourge was Scourge, and sentience only made her more dangerous. These so-called Forsaken converted their fallen kingdom into an underground bastion as a secret headquarters to concoct an elixir that can eliminate all life. Honestly, the name they're going with is "Forsaken", as if they had been betrayed? With a ringleader like Putress, any regime these monsters commit themselves to has no limit to its psychosis.

Molten rage surged through Arete. Her empty eyeholes flared as her lips parted and belted out a scream of agony, her rotted tongue and missing teeth bearing witness to the world after two months of hiding. A verbal torrent of anguish resounded across the Plaguelands, inciting an angry response from the bats sleeping in the nearby trees. The Forsaken girl and the bats contested passively, the pitch of each argument ringing throughout the area. When her voice gave, she began again, each wail warbling with more distress than the last. Blind with anger, Arete burrowed into the dirt slope, oblivious to the disturbed bats steadily approaching. Incredibly agitated, a noxious bat swooped down and attacked Arete, screeching and scratching with its hooked feet. Her arms flailed wildly in protest of the aerial assault, unlatching her from the roots protruding from her digging. Her toes grazed along a foothold for recovery, breaking gravity and evading a seven foot straight fall. She tumbled to the ground exhausted and defeated, remaining silent while the bat finished scolding her and returned to its nest.

The sun rose and fell, but Arete's existence persisted. Food never came. Nor was it necessary.

A putrid scent sliced her nostrils and fatigued trance in two. The festering Scourge that had been smothered beneath a suitable spread of dirt had been upturned, the flesh baking in the midday sun. The stench was suffocating. Every pore itched to close, her throat and eyes following suit. Arete felt the partially-digested food in her stomach writhe against her twitching organs, tickling her gag reflex. She lurched upward, peristalsis in reverse, and spit up a viscous liquid. It splattered audibly against a vertical, vague surface, oozing down like heavy resin. The stink was so thick in the air it blurred her vision temporarily; all she could see was a pulsating sheet of yellow interrupted by her black vomit. The wall groaned and began to move, irked by the sticky affliction. Recovering from her purge, Arete slowly backed away as the object turned about-face with a sickly squelch.

A massive carrion grub gnashed its spongy mandibles, admiring its future feast. A creep this size had a particular name: Arete had retched on the treacherous Borelgore. The four petals of its mouth unpuckered, revealing the sloppy, endless innards that ran through its girth. Arete stared at the depths of the beast, paralyzed in horror. Faster than Arete had anticipated, Borelgore advanced with its maw agape, ready to swallow Arete whole.

Arete ran to the monster's side in a panic, each roll of its exterior rushing past her without end in sight. Weary from her dormancy, she collapsed in a heap after only a few steps. She looked up from the ground and saw nothing but jaundice yellow looming over her. It towered at nearly twice her height, perhaps more, and slithered beside Arete like a serpent. In a struggle to chase the girl, Borelgore made a wide turn, almost full circle, kicking up dust and bones and knocking over mounds of refuse within the fault. Arete scurried up a crooked rock as she ran opposite of the maggot's direction, cautious as it wobbled beneath her feet. Completing its turn, Borelgore charged head first into Arete's platform, the rock flying past Borelgore's head and taking Arete with it. She slammed into the top hatch of the worm's divided opening, knocking the wind from her. Her arms stretched across and gripped Borelgore's head, but her legs dangled freely in front of its mouth.

Her fingers pierced into Borelgore's segmented flesh. She grit her teeth and prayed. She couldn't help it. Her legs kicked at the air as she tried pulling herself up and on top of its head. Its bated breath tainted her feet and its spittle dotted her legs as it roared with temptation. The air curdled with the smell of digested, rotten flesh seeping from Borelgore's gullet. Arete threw up again, the pitch gushing from the corners of her lips then down her chin to dribble onto her chest. She coughed up the rest, staining Borelgore's head. The grub shook angrily, gargling in anticipation of its meal and in anger that it wasn't in its stomach yet. Arete's legs swung back and forth like a pendulum which Borelgore followed intently, gradually succumbing to the hypnosis brought on by its hunger.


Borelgore threw its head back to take the bait, tossing her legs upward and securely situating Arete on its "neck". As far as Arete was concerned, she was out of Borelgore's reach. Eyeless and dim-witted, the giant larvae whipped its head in every direction in search of its prey. The ground shifted under its tiny, stomping legs. Arete reluctantly rose to stand during the behemoth's temper tantrum but was instantly thrown onto her back when Borelgore began its frenzied darting around the pit. It shoved its side repeatedly into the rocks strewn about its path, marring its soft meat in order to buck its rider. Arete clung to the grub, helpless and afraid. As Arete pleaded for the Light's assistance, Borelgore insanely headbutted the sides of the enclosure over and over. Dirt and rocks misted over the pair, an especially large one hitting Arete on the head. Arete felt for the stone in a punch drunk daze, her fingers tracing over a spiral embossed into the unusually smooth rock. Arete beamed; this was her ticket out of here.

A wicked cackle escaped from what shouldn't have been a priestess as she admired her newfound hearthstone with glee. She held it close to her heart as it illuminated with tender nature magic. In her hands she held the only seed of life for miles amidst the Plaguelands, and in a few seconds it would bring her home safely. Her body snapped against Borelgore's continued thrashing but her arms stayed stiff and close to her chest, gripping the magic stone in a vice. A final thud cracked Arete's spine, thrusting the hearthstone from her grasp and onto a ledge above the bronco.

Had she known any of the words, Arete would have cursed up a storm. Her fingers burrowed into Borelgore's flesh deeper, obliviously puncturing the first layer of flesh. Hatred simmered and stewed within her, now slowly bubbling to the surface.

She heard Putress' oily chortling beneath his wooden plague doctor beak. She remembered the way he rubbed his elongated fingers together, tented and scheming. Tortuous sounds occupied her entire skull, resounding back and forth as if in a large, empty room with stone walls. Images flashed of Lordaeron, rose petals, orcs hogtied and hopeless on the back of a cart, farmers waving torches and pitchforks, wax crayons, a rabbit pelt laying in a forest clearing, dead trees, Alterac, snow--

"I cannot die again!"

Arete raked her fingers down the monster's back and it growled in pain. She then harnessed the strips of flesh between the oozing wounds to lead the maniac toward the edge of the pit. Arete steered the makeshift reins up a gradual slope of laughable elevation for a creature like Borelgore, and the worm miserably obeyed. Its tiny feet scuttled up and onto the mainland. With the bite of her lip and a grimace, Arete punched between the lacerations to create a gushing hole that enveloped the now-seemingly minor injuries. Borelgore nearly squawked as the new malady jolted through every rung of its pudgy body. Arete was finally bucked off and landed in the dirt, dangerously close to the edge of her previous prison. As Borelgore careened into the distance, Arete edged away from the ditch and surveyed the area for her long-abandoned belongings.

She salvaged what remained of her shredded backpack, apparently ravished by the Scourge wandering around the area. A change of clothes remained within it, although torn, along with some indiscernible molded food. A breath of euphoria lifted Arete to a state of delirious tunnel vision: she saw her hearthstone, laying in a bit of mud, and nothing else. Transfixed, she crawled on her hands and knees and gingerly procured the stone, wiping its familiar spiral pattern clean. Arete quickly baled the little she found in her lap, then pressed the relic to her face in adoration. The caressing nature magic returned and in a flash of gold light, she vanished.
 
 
Arete Fantine Morguelocke
23 May 2009 @ 03:58 pm
 
(( The pages of the entry are wet, causing the ink to run slightly but not enough to render the words illegible. ))

somebody please help me

i am stuck

i cant get out

i've been here for a really long time. can't anyone help me or hear me?
i'm stuck in this thing i dont know what its called.

the food in my bag is rotting

i'm stuck you guys.

okay it's this

its like a hole. but its deep. [Gutterspeak] TRENCH TRENCH IT'S A FUCKING TRENCH HELP HELP HELP HELP [/Gutterspeak] there are rocks on top as well too heavy for me to lift its dark no one can see me. its cold too

please i dont want to be barryed in the ice again
 
 
Arete Fantine Morguelocke
11 March 2009 @ 11:55 am
I used to be a beautiful young woman. I let a monster inside of me and he ripped me inside out. My insides are on the outside now. My bones are visible. I have holes in my face where you can see the layers of rotting flesh beneath the film of my skin. What used to be my skin. I have no idea what it is any more.

I just wanted to help people... I just wanted to help...

But I guess my dad was trying to save me. Orcs aren't people. They're monsters. They're all monsters.
I'm a monster now too.

I'm not a pretty girl any more. Now I'm a monster. I have claws instead of fingers, I'm missing teeth, my nose is all messed up and my hair is all weird and stringy, like doll hair. Like it's made of straw, like in a barn.

I wish I grew up somewhere like Westfall. I could be a big strong farm girl and no one would hurt me. I could be with animals all day, milking cows and plowing the field and feeding the sows and horses. I could use tools and I wouldn't have to be stuck reading all about magic. If a mean orc came up to me, I'd take my pitchfork and ram him good! Yeah! I'd stick him in the chest, in the heart, and

but no, what about trilin

He was the nicest orc I had met. Maybe because he was half human. I feel half human too.

I could have been strong. I could have fought with weapons if I tried. I studied magic for hours and hours and I felt like I didn't spend time at all. I got better and better at it but there are still a lot of things I need to know. Lately I haven't been myself or trying to

[The entry ceases abruptly, and seems to have been returned to after a short period of time]

I wanted to be a death guard but he won't let me take the test. I could do it. I could do it for the dark lady.

I could use weapons I know I could.
 
 
Arete Fantine Morguelocke
28 February 2009 @ 07:24 pm
 
Tears keep falling, raining down...
I can't try again...
There's smoke pouring out
 
 
Arete Fantine Morguelocke
15 January 2009 @ 05:11 pm
 
today i got a letter.

(( The letter is included within the pages of the journal and reads as follows:

I feel that since we've separated you deserve this. I'm so terribly sorry for all the poor memories I provided. Sorry I spent so much money on you and gave you false hope. Sorry I loved you so much and didn't want to love what was more important or share my life with you.

You are a wonderful person, if a bit odd at times and somewhat oblivious but I think that quality is something I possess as well.

Good luck in the rest of your unlife, Arete. I'll talk to you later.

From,
Shambler



he said he will talk to me later but i don't think he is alive. the last i saw he was real injured and my magic wouldn't work. i have not seen or heard from him since.

kanashii wanted to marry me. he has been missing too. i hope the two didnt duel to the death, especially over me. we went into the caverns of time.



he is so old.

both of them are so old.
 
 
Arete Fantine Morguelocke
31 December 2008 @ 01:24 pm
 
being molly is hard.

magnus is alive?


trolls are... yet...
so wonderful, but i better connect with...

he nourishes me in the way only a forsaken can.







I am Forsaken.
 
 
Arete Fantine Morguelocke
17 November 2008 @ 07:44 pm
 
I can't go north, I just can't.

I hope Thrall never commissions me, I really do hope so.

why did I yell? why did I speak? why did I fear death?

I should have let it take me, I should have let it end once and for all. I should have died for good, buried in the graveyard of my home where I thought I would from the beginning. as a human. I'm still human, I'm still human I'm still human

and I was laying there and I thought about all the people that I loved very much and all the people that loved me too

then kainn and then miss ava and then kwennin

why didnt they just leave me to die why didnt they just leave me to die why didnt they just leave me to die
i needed a healer and no one was there to save me


there will always be light in darkness.
 
 
Arete Fantine Morguelocke
19 October 2008 @ 12:55 pm
 
So because i did not go with my dad, he tried to make me go there myself.

i was in southshore playing games for Hallow's End and i saw him there.

we walked for peace, but he sapped me and i stood there dizzy like always and then when my eyes opened a lot i could see it was him. then he killed Tarrun Mills flight master. then he vanished. i could sense him and i knew he was around somewhere but the point is he stabbed me twice and i almost killed him

i begged for mercy
because i loved him

i loved him once. nobody can know.
 
 
Arete Fantine Morguelocke
13 October 2008 @ 09:03 pm
(( Story ))
She began by washing her clothes in the lake.

A naked corpse hidden in the glades, monotonously, rhythmically, scrubbing enchanted robes weaved with care and imbued with arcane dust and planar essence on a washboard. Taking her skinning knife, she scraped several thin flakes from the soap-on-a-rope she'd purchased from Griftah earlier. No, a long time ago.

Had it been that long?

Curse these rotted bones, this blackened gray matter. She couldn't remember for the un-life of her when she had first purchased from Griftah. But she loved him-- she loved everyone. She was in love with Griftah, but she was in love with the world and all of its people; "people" being the various humanoids scattered across Azeroth and Outland. Humans, elves, trolls, orcs, draenei, gnomes, dwarves, tauren, goblins, satyrs, naga, Wretched, dryads, centaur... she loved them all.

She rinsed and wrung out her garments in remorse, mud squelching beneath her as she shifted her long sedentary position. She did love Griftah, but she loved a lot of people. She assumed he loved her too, the way he beckoned her each time she strode past, curling a finger to reel her in close, speaking to her directly and personally, even if it concerned her apparent stench. It couldn't just be a selling point, could it? She had to be more than his favorite customer despite immediately snatching up whatever new and kitschy trinkets he had for sale.

Her fingers tensed around the thick clothing, heavy and wet with Brightwater Lake's murky shore. The tendons in her hands nearly rose through her paper-thin, pallid skin as she squeezed the water from her clothes in rage. She bought his wares, and indeed they worked as promised. Never had she been stolen by a tikbalang to the treetops, she's always gained energy after eating and drinking, and (most of the time) she's been able to leap across small gaps. One, however, proved to be defective, or at least it must generate a horrid aura of voodoo repelling her objects of affection as opposed to attracting them. They couldn't be blamed, however. She was indeed a corpse, a putrid byproduct of the Scourge.

She loved spitting, musky, wily trolls and bulky, roaring, steadfast orcs, but they preferred their female counterparts. Arete was left with no one but her own kind, those whose breeding ground was a literally a cemetery. She liked to believe she was more human than they, that she had long transcended Scourge mentality through constant appraise and devotion to the Light, being educated among the many tribal races of the Horde, and detaching herself in absolution from the Alliance. She dipped her undergarments in the water knowing she was wrong.

The warrior Kanashii, riddled in Amani artifacts as her husband once was, had helped her remedy her doubts of sophistication. She found disgrace in the task of consuming flesh, repulsed by the concept and ashamed of the need. If her father Lucrothe had ever addressed the subject, then it seemed to have melted from the recesses of her memories.

She was ashamed of the need.

Birds of prey circled in the sky over Durotar. The sun blazed down upon the parched, cracked landscape; the dry wind dragged dirt and particles into its crevices and along its barren plains. Despite the arid weather, music played in the distance, for it was a time of the year where patrons quenched their withered throats with cultivated yeast and spirits: with liquor, with beer, with tonic, with simply brew. Standing banners were gently swept by the breeze to advertise and welcome the Horde and Alliance alike to drown their thirst and regrets and manners in dizzying bubbles of liquefied grain. The posters stamped with mugs flew high, and the drunkards slunk against their beams down below.

Two Forsaken, half reclining and half laying down, observed each other between whispers. What remained of their eyelids hung heavily over their empty, blackened eye sockets. A damp, leathery tongue dragged against her skin.

"Why are you poking me?"
"Who wouldn't want to poke you...?"

Withered and decayed, the warrior was hunched over, stark naked, by the priestess adorned in heavy mooncloth. He prodded her again with a bony finger and licked her, flushing her face a sickly green with ichor. He took a swig of strong ogrish alcohol and muttered through rotted teeth.

The warrior Kanashii
The warrior Kanashii


"I'm sorry you had to see that, Arete."
"What do you mean?"
"...My face."
"I think you looked beautiful."
"It's better with skin."
"But you have skin..."
"No, I mean... let's go to Shattrath and talk to Miss Zephyr. I want to show you something."

She loved Shattrath, but she loved the world and all of its people.
"I love you, Griftah."
"Ya what..."
She brushed a finger along the hair of a hula doll.
"Don't be touchin' dat 'less ya gonna be payin' for it." Griftah's broad lips curled into a frown over his long tusks.
She leaned over the wooden desk littered with shoddy figurines, her eyes aligned with Griftah's chest. "You want l-lots of money, Griftah... d-do you want me too?" Her luminescent eyes gazed up at him. "I-I have lots of money, I-I promise... I'll make even more money for you."
The merchant waved his arms cautiously. "Nah, dat be... dat be unncessary..." Over his shoulder, he quickly calculated the distance between himself and his tent. "Don'tcha have dat 'usband o' yers? De Winterax mage in dat Bloodrite group? Dey bein' talked about a lot in Shattrat'... wit' all dey work in de Sunwell..."
Arete recoiled and bit her lip. "No, but I mean, I... Griftah, p-please, I..."
The troll slowly caroused backward toward his tent, keeping constant eye on the invasive Forsaken. When close enough, he slipped inside, gripping the door flap and apologizing, "Listen girl, it be nice dat ya buy what ya do, but'cha just a customer." He ducked inside and shut the drapes.
"Griftah, no... no," she begged, rushing behind the counter and searching for an opening in the shroud. "What do you want? I-I can give it to you... I'll give you everything..."
Hidden in the corner, Griftah's ears flattened in irritation and he grumbled, "Feh, it be no wonder de old troll got sick o' ya..." As she continued running circles around his cover, he yelled, "Go eat worms or somet'ing, corpse! I'm closed!"

"Arete, you're more beautiful than I could have imagined."
"Thank you... it always feels quite strange to be in here."
"What do you think of me?"
"I like your jaw!" She laughed full and profound.

She folded her robes and pants. She unfolded, then re-folded her pants. She snapped her robe in the air and folded it again. She threw both on the muddy ground in torment and shrieked with aggravation. She wrapped her knees in her arms, tucked her head between her knees, and started to moan and sob in wailing agony. "I don't want to die, I don't want to die..." She clutched her hair and clenched her teeth, pulling slightly and digging into the earth with her heels.

She ruined her clothes, according to Griftah she ruined her marriage, she ruined her relationships, she ruined her family, she spoiled anything she touched as a rotting rancid smelly unfeeling insensible unforgivable wretched dead dead dead dead dead dead

She could feel, she could sense-- the only thing rooting her to the degenerates beneath her in terms of rational and humane capacity was the Hunger, a carnal desire for flesh. It was depraved and illogical yet seemed only fitting that she'd receive what she wanted most from one who shared the malady. Just her rancid luck. He for her, both for flesh... but not each other's.

"Maybe while Magnus is connecting with his people, you can reconnect with your own." These weren't her people. These were her people. They couldn't be, they shouldn't be, they are, they were, they will be.

Arete and her clothes were utterly drenched in sticky molasses of mud as if she had been rolling in it like a hog. She slowly descended into the lake, holding her clothes, and let herself be cleansed. She worked renewing magic on herself even though she had no need for it other than the endothermic sensation of purity. She dunked her entire head underwater, observing the plant life and few, scattered fish. She swam a while, her clothes accompanying her. At the bottom of the lake, anchored down by a sack of grain, lay the waterlogged remains of her father, sir Victor Morguelocke. Her undeath removing the pestering lack of oxygen beneath the surface, she stared at and pondered her father. Rising once again to the reeds that bordered the lake, she stood in defeat yet enlightenment scanning the purple and black horizon. Applying her sopping armor, she stumbled silently toward the Undercity.

To her people.